3rd Trimester of The 3rd Pregnancy

 

Alhamdulillah, I'm currently 30w1d pregnant. Another 10 weeks to go or probably less before the arrival of our 3rd Bundle of Joy, insyaAllah. Unlike the previous 2 pregnancies, the progress of preparing the baby's stuff etc this time is rather slow :') It's not even 10% done & we haven't actually confirmed the gender yet. Will explain about this later

So, how it feels being pregnant for the 3rd time? Does everything become easier since I've been going through the same thing for the previous 2 pregnancies?

The answer is yes or no; no matter how many time you've been pregnant. In my case, the more pregnancies I've, the more worrying thoughts I've. Is the Baby okay? Will he/she be healthy like my other 2 Kids? etc. Mother's love is endless. It even starts even before the Baby is born, MasyaAllah

♥ The 1st trimester:- Like the previous 2 pregnancies, I didn't have morning sickness except that I lost my appetite (lost almost 2 kg during the 1st few weeks) & felt tired most of the time. Like very very very tired & all I wanted to do is laying down on my bed & sleeping all day long. Tak makan pun tak apa. Nak makan pun tak ada selera, remember? Huhu! I skipped doing house chores like cooking, lipat baju etc for a few weeks because I felt extremely tired. Thanks A.H for playing a role as good husband & Papa during those time because if wasn't him, tunggang langgang lah kehidupan kami 1 family. With 2 kids aged 4 & 6; our hands were/are full. And oh, I also didn't like A.H's smell when he was near me. That was something new in this 3rd pregnancy. Lols!

 ♥ The 2nd trimester:- Things got better. Slowly regained my appetite when I was 5m pregnant & I liked eating fish more than chicken which also happened during the previous 2 pregnancies. The bump started showing, in fact it already started showing when I was 3m pregnant. Thanks to the 2x csect I had had before. Hehe! The Kids were excited; both Iman & Imran wished for a baby boy. Me? I don't mind, as long as the Baby is healthy & has no complication. We did the usual scan at A.H's workplace a few times & it showed that the Baby is X but learning from the 1st pregnancy, only a 3D scan can give us 100% assurance on the gender. Tu pun dah terrrrbeli a few things yang menjurus kepada X gender. Hehe!

 ♥ The 3rd trimester & loading... :- Entering 3rd trimester means more body aches here & there, masyaAllah even it means just laying down on the bed doing nothing :') Finding a perfect & comfortable sleeping position at night has become trickier, especially when I've a 4 year old son i.e Imran who is very clingy & manja and wants to sleep on my arm & demands cuddle every single night. Leg cramps have also become frequent at night/morning but the good thing is, I have a cute & bubbly personal masseur who is very curious about everything. Thank you Kakak Iman for being so helpful & caring. Dia massage pakai Vicks & asked me whether I feel lega whilst massaging me. Lepas tu request kita pulak massage dia. Lols! Cute sangat awak ni, Iman

Will update this blog from time to time for my 3rd pregnancy. Just realised that I almost didn't blog anything when I was pregnant with Imran, my 2nd child except this post. Alahai, kesiannnn Manja Boy Mama

Bismillah

First Day Of School

 19/03/2023, Sunday

Today is the first day of school, Alhamdulillah. How time flies!

Our Kids, Iman is 6 & Imran is 4 this year and we decided to send Imran to his Kakak's 'big school' finally. No more going to the nursery for him where all the teachers treated him like a baby but poor boy, he still misses his previous nursery & teachers. Lalu depan nursery mesti cakap "School Imran tutup" :') It's okay, Imran. The transition from nursery to kindergarten might be a bit overwhelming in these couple of days/weeks but you'll get used to it soon. InsyaAllah

And how  I love sending these two to their kindergarten in the morning where we can have some quality times in the car & listening to their funny & random stories. Especially Iman who always has something to share about her classmates, Raisha, Adam, Qhaleef etc. I'm sure I'm going to miss this morning carpool session when she's in a primary school soon

As much I love sending them to school, the getting-ready-to-kindergarten part can be tiring & tricky especially when you've a 4 years old boy who thinks his Mama's office is cooler than his kindergarten. Adui, memang mencabar kesabaran Mamanya that by the time I arrived in front of their kindergarten in the morning, bateri badan was about 40% left already. Penat. Lols!

Have fun at school, you two! Study hard & smart and may you enjoy this erudite journey as much as me & your Papa did. And oh, for time being, Iman wants to be a doctor like her Papa, while Imran hasn't made up his mind yet. Too busy juggling his life between Lego, Hotwheels, dinosaurs etc. Hehe!

My Dear Iman & Imran

                                                    01/10/2022, Saturday, Lotus' Kota Bharu

I became a Mama when I was 30 years old

Before I was even expecting, I always pictured myself as a cool & fun Mama. The house would be filled with me & my Kids' laughter, singing & dancing, colouring, reading, cooking & baking etc. Oh, the truly definition of Rumahku Syurgaku. When I knew I was carrying my 1st child, I bought some books on pregnancy & parenting and read a lot of online articles on both subjects. I observe some people I know (or know from the social media. Lols!) on their parenting method & compare the ones who would suit me ...

... but motherhood doesn't need any manual to be honest

You can't compare your parenting method with other mothers because everybody leads different lifestyle. A's parenting method might not be suitable with B, vice versa. And one can't simply criticize some mothers' choice of the way they raise up their kids, just because it goes against your so called school of thoughts. You just do you. We gave birth to our kids & have been with them since the 1st second they were brought into life by the Almighty, so why should we give a damn to some strangers who just met you like a few seconds ago?

My Kids are 5 & 3 years old now & I love them with all my heart. I sacrifice a lot of things for them, like my sleep *coughs* for example. My love is selfless. I put them above everything else no matter how tiring my day has been. Utmost love & care. My heart is full with love. Cuddles before the bed time & them looking at me like I'm the best person in this whole wide world is the best feeling ever. I feel appreciated & wanted :')

Well of course their Papa is there too but bagi chance please Mama dia nak jadi heroin sat

But, there were so many times I wish I could have done better. Especially after I got upset at them & scolded them; making me feel like I'm the worst mother who can't even tolerate the kids' tantrum. The guilt & frustration, the anger & tears

My 1st child, Iman has always been a Papa's girl. She loves her Papa so much & I honestly think she even loves him more than she loves me. Lols! I mean, her Papa has always been a fun person. You don't want to mandi even it's Maghrib already? Fine, you can mandi later. Wake up in the morning & want Twisties for breakfast? Sure can! (regardless him being a medical doctor. Pening mak!) & other fun things which she couldn't get her way if she's with me

Me, on the hand, have always been a strict mother. Must take bath early in the morning even if it's weekend. Must take bath at least twice a day (I make it compulsory to bathe 3 times a day, btw). Can't have too much sweet or junk food, they will slowly damage your brain. Can't watch tv too close, not good for your sight & other 41975356787 of Do's & Don'ts

This morning, I got slightly annoyed at  Iman for being playful whilst getting ready for school. I probably had said something to her that made her hurt I guess which later made her refuse to salam me & literally pushed me away before she left for her kindergarten with her Papa. Didn't even smile & wave me good bye, like she always did. I felt so rejected. Terus affect mood Mama sekali

Sigh!

My 2nd child, Imran is the opposite of her sister because he's definitely my Manja Boy. Mama this & Mama that. Always Mama. Hence, almost 3y5m & still bf-ing -.-' Sometimes I wonder how can he be so manja? Is it because he knows that he's the youngest or is it because I'm the one who manja him? My Husband thinks it's the latter but I can't help la. Iman is already manja with her Papa, so I also want a child to manja with me. And since we only have 2 kids, that child left is Imran :P

But I love them equally although each has some special spots in my hearts. It's not pilih kasih, just maybe the way I treat them according to their age. Both were born via c-sect, I endured the pain, those sleepless nights, feeding time, expressing & keeping the ebm etc.

Sekian, bebelan seorang Mama. May Allah swt ease all mak-mak's affairs in raising up our kids as we want only the best for them. Amin

Wad 3U, HUSM

 HUSM, Kubang Kerian, Wad 3U, 21/09/2022 - 28/09/2022

September 2022 is probably one of the hardest & challenging months for me, with Ma being admitted twice to HUSM due to her illness

About 2 years ago, Ma was diagnosed with cirrhosis (end-stage liver disease), kidney stone etc. Reading her yesterday's Discharge Summary made me realize of how many diseases she's been suffering. I don't understand most of the medical terms used in the Discharge Summary & I also can't imagine the pain she has to go through

And tears have been easily oozing lately. Sometimes, whilst I was driving, or taking bath or at my office room. Sometimes, I can't help but to miss Ma's old self, when she was still healthy & strong. She likes attending kuliyyah agama with Abah or her friends where she would drive them with her car & later makan-makan some where. She loved cooking even when she started to fall sick, she would cook while sitting down on the chair 

Often, there are some disturbing thoughts lurking around in my mind & being an overthinking person I'm, they would emotionally affect me for days. Sometimes, I couldn't help to feel that I'm alone in this journey. Feeling hopeless & wish that I could have done better

Looking after a sick parent is mentally & physically tired & challenging. And I pray to Allah swt to always ease my affairs & give me more rizq so that I could provide the best for both of my Parents. Aminn