Ilham Sofea

                           In the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

We are pleased to announce the arrival of our third child, a baby girl named Ilham Sofea who was born on 30/11/2023, 17 Jumadilawal 1445H (Thursday) at 9.46 am via an elective c-section at HUSM (USains), 2 weeks early from her edd. Alhamdulillah.

Ilham (الهام) means inspiration, intuition, divine guidance

Sofea (صفة) means wisdom, knowledge, graceful

Sofea's fine, healthy & so far, an easy baby. Alhamdulillah. Born with a pair of sepet eyes as she embraces the Chinese side from her Papa, she instantly has become popular among her elder siblings, Kakak & BearBear and also her 3 cousins, Abe Umar, Kak Yam & Kak Ani. Alhamdulillah.

As for now, we're still adjusting to being parents of 3 kids. Like my first 2 Kids, the 1st week was the hardest with me still in a weak condition & the Baby still uterus lagged. Iman as the the eldest, is so helpful & lovely. Taking care of Sofea seems natural for her, probably due to the training she has received all this while. Hehe! Meanwhile Imran, he just loves his baby sister so much that he keeps requesting to hold her from time to time

And since she was born during the school holiday & we're currently living with my Parents where my nephew & nieces will come over everyday from morning until night; you can imagine how merry Sofea's life has become with them keep coming to admire and adore her all day long. They even purposely made some noise sometimes to wake her up! Sabau je lah! Hehe!

As for now, Alhamdulillah for everything! ♥

Getting Prepared For The Baby's Arrival

I'm currently in my 33w of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah

During my visit to Klinik Kesihatan on 18/10/2023 (Wednesday), the nurse asked whether I've started preparing for the Baby's arrival. You know, stuff like clothes, diapers etc. Tergagap-gagap sis nak menjawabnya because to be honest, we still have a lot of things on the list. Not that we aren't excited but we had learnt our lesson during our first Child, Iman. We excitedly bought a lot of baby boy's stuff during my 2nd trimester, kebetulan ada Baby Fair only to discover later that Iman is actually a girl. Can you imagine the jaw drop moment we had in front of the Dr? Redha je Iman pakai baju corak-corak helicopter, dinosaur etc. Nasib baik masa tu tak pandai complain lagi. Lols!

You may read the posts about them here:

• Hospital Bags
• Confinement Room (Part 1) & Part 2
• We're Expecting A Baby's Girl
   

We actually waited until I was in the early 3rd trimester to get the 4D scan done at Klinik Primer Lembah Sireh which we actually did on 05/10/2023 (Thursday). Now the gender is confirmed, baru lah confident sikit nak beli barang-barang baby. I feel like I've lived in 3 different time zone while being pregnant with my 3 kids. I mean, shopping for baby's stuff online was very limited back with my previous 2 pregnancies then but now! Everything is just a click away!

And baby stuffs is so much more affordable & cuter these days! Deep down inside, I'm grateful to be pregnant again in this era sebab boleh beli banyak cute stuff. Sis rambang mata, sis cannotlah! Lols! 

As for now, the preparation is almost complete I reckon? Praying for a smooth delivery soon, Amin. This is going to be my 3rd csect operation yet I still have that seram sejuk feeling, especially when I remember the moment I had started to lose control of my body once the anesthesia started to work on me. And also, how cold the operation theatre was! 

3rd Trimester of The 3rd Pregnancy

 

Alhamdulillah, I'm currently 30w1d pregnant. Another 10 weeks to go or probably less before the arrival of our 3rd Bundle of Joy, insyaAllah. Unlike the previous 2 pregnancies, the progress of preparing the baby's stuff etc this time is rather slow :') It's not even 10% done & we haven't actually confirmed the gender yet. Will explain about this later

So, how it feels being pregnant for the 3rd time? Does everything become easier since I've been going through the same thing for the previous 2 pregnancies?

The answer is yes or no; no matter how many time you've been pregnant. In my case, the more pregnancies I've, the more worrying thoughts I've. Is the Baby okay? Will he/she be healthy like my other 2 Kids? etc. Mother's love is endless. It even starts even before the Baby is born, MasyaAllah

♥ The 1st trimester:- Like the previous 2 pregnancies, I didn't have morning sickness except that I lost my appetite (lost almost 2 kg during the 1st few weeks) & felt tired most of the time. Like very very very tired & all I wanted to do is laying down on my bed & sleeping all day long. Tak makan pun tak apa. Nak makan pun tak ada selera, remember? Huhu! I skipped doing house chores like cooking, lipat baju etc for a few weeks because I felt extremely tired. Thanks A.H for playing a role as good husband & Papa during those time because if wasn't him, tunggang langgang lah kehidupan kami 1 family. With 2 kids aged 4 & 6; our hands were/are full. And oh, I also didn't like A.H's smell when he was near me. That was something new in this 3rd pregnancy. Lols!

 ♥ The 2nd trimester:- Things got better. Slowly regained my appetite when I was 5m pregnant & I liked eating fish more than chicken which also happened during the previous 2 pregnancies. The bump started showing, in fact it already started showing when I was 3m pregnant. Thanks to the 2x csect I had had before. Hehe! The Kids were excited; both Iman & Imran wished for a baby boy. Me? I don't mind, as long as the Baby is healthy & has no complication. We did the usual scan at A.H's workplace a few times & it showed that the Baby is X but learning from the 1st pregnancy, only a 3D scan can give us 100% assurance on the gender. Tu pun dah terrrrbeli a few things yang menjurus kepada X gender. Hehe!

 ♥ The 3rd trimester & loading... :- Entering 3rd trimester means more body aches here & there, masyaAllah even it means just laying down on the bed doing nothing :') Finding a perfect & comfortable sleeping position at night has become trickier, especially when I've a 4 year old son i.e Imran who is very clingy & manja and wants to sleep on my arm & demands cuddle every single night. Leg cramps have also become frequent at night/morning but the good thing is, I have a cute & bubbly personal masseur who is very curious about everything. Thank you Kakak Iman for being so helpful & caring. Dia massage pakai Vicks & asked me whether I feel lega whilst massaging me. Lepas tu request kita pulak massage dia. Lols! Cute sangat awak ni, Iman

Will update this blog from time to time for my 3rd pregnancy. Just realised that I almost didn't blog anything when I was pregnant with Imran, my 2nd child except this post. Alahai, kesiannnn Manja Boy Mama

Bismillah

First Day Of School

 19/03/2023, Sunday

Today is the first day of school, Alhamdulillah. How time flies!

Our Kids, Iman is 6 & Imran is 4 this year and we decided to send Imran to his Kakak's 'big school' finally. No more going to the nursery for him where all the teachers treated him like a baby but poor boy, he still misses his previous nursery & teachers. Lalu depan nursery mesti cakap "School Imran tutup" :') It's okay, Imran. The transition from nursery to kindergarten might be a bit overwhelming in these couple of days/weeks but you'll get used to it soon. InsyaAllah

And how  I love sending these two to their kindergarten in the morning where we can have some quality times in the car & listening to their funny & random stories. Especially Iman who always has something to share about her classmates, Raisha, Adam, Qhaleef etc. I'm sure I'm going to miss this morning carpool session when she's in a primary school soon

As much I love sending them to school, the getting-ready-to-kindergarten part can be tiring & tricky especially when you've a 4 years old boy who thinks his Mama's office is cooler than his kindergarten. Adui, memang mencabar kesabaran Mamanya that by the time I arrived in front of their kindergarten in the morning, bateri badan was about 40% left already. Penat. Lols!

Have fun at school, you two! Study hard & smart and may you enjoy this erudite journey as much as me & your Papa did. And oh, for time being, Iman wants to be a doctor like her Papa, while Imran hasn't made up his mind yet. Too busy juggling his life between Lego, Hotwheels, dinosaurs etc. Hehe!

My Dear Iman & Imran

                                                    01/10/2022, Saturday, Lotus' Kota Bharu

I became a Mama when I was 30 years old

Before I was even expecting, I always pictured myself as a cool & fun Mama. The house would be filled with me & my Kids' laughter, singing & dancing, colouring, reading, cooking & baking etc. Oh, the truly definition of Rumahku Syurgaku. When I knew I was carrying my 1st child, I bought some books on pregnancy & parenting and read a lot of online articles on both subjects. I observe some people I know (or know from the social media. Lols!) on their parenting method & compare the ones who would suit me ...

... but motherhood doesn't need any manual to be honest

You can't compare your parenting method with other mothers because everybody leads different lifestyle. A's parenting method might not be suitable with B, vice versa. And one can't simply criticize some mothers' choice of the way they raise up their kids, just because it goes against your so called school of thoughts. You just do you. We gave birth to our kids & have been with them since the 1st second they were brought into life by the Almighty, so why should we give a damn to some strangers who just met you like a few seconds ago?

My Kids are 5 & 3 years old now & I love them with all my heart. I sacrifice a lot of things for them, like my sleep *coughs* for example. My love is selfless. I put them above everything else no matter how tiring my day has been. Utmost love & care. My heart is full with love. Cuddles before the bed time & them looking at me like I'm the best person in this whole wide world is the best feeling ever. I feel appreciated & wanted :')

Well of course their Papa is there too but bagi chance please Mama dia nak jadi heroin sat

But, there were so many times I wish I could have done better. Especially after I got upset at them & scolded them; making me feel like I'm the worst mother who can't even tolerate the kids' tantrum. The guilt & frustration, the anger & tears

My 1st child, Iman has always been a Papa's girl. She loves her Papa so much & I honestly think she even loves him more than she loves me. Lols! I mean, her Papa has always been a fun person. You don't want to mandi even it's Maghrib already? Fine, you can mandi later. Wake up in the morning & want Twisties for breakfast? Sure can! (regardless him being a medical doctor. Pening mak!) & other fun things which she couldn't get her way if she's with me

Me, on the hand, have always been a strict mother. Must take bath early in the morning even if it's weekend. Must take bath at least twice a day (I make it compulsory to bathe 3 times a day, btw). Can't have too much sweet or junk food, they will slowly damage your brain. Can't watch tv too close, not good for your sight & other 41975356787 of Do's & Don'ts

This morning, I got slightly annoyed at  Iman for being playful whilst getting ready for school. I probably had said something to her that made her hurt I guess which later made her refuse to salam me & literally pushed me away before she left for her kindergarten with her Papa. Didn't even smile & wave me good bye, like she always did. I felt so rejected. Terus affect mood Mama sekali

Sigh!

My 2nd child, Imran is the opposite of her sister because he's definitely my Manja Boy. Mama this & Mama that. Always Mama. Hence, almost 3y5m & still bf-ing -.-' Sometimes I wonder how can he be so manja? Is it because he knows that he's the youngest or is it because I'm the one who manja him? My Husband thinks it's the latter but I can't help la. Iman is already manja with her Papa, so I also want a child to manja with me. And since we only have 2 kids, that child left is Imran :P

But I love them equally although each has some special spots in my hearts. It's not pilih kasih, just maybe the way I treat them according to their age. Both were born via c-sect, I endured the pain, those sleepless nights, feeding time, expressing & keeping the ebm etc.

Sekian, bebelan seorang Mama. May Allah swt ease all mak-mak's affairs in raising up our kids as we want only the best for them. Amin

Wad 3U, HUSM

 HUSM, Kubang Kerian, Wad 3U, 21/09/2022 - 28/09/2022

September 2022 is probably one of the hardest & challenging months for me, with Ma being admitted twice to HUSM due to her illness

About 2 years ago, Ma was diagnosed with cirrhosis (end-stage liver disease), kidney stone etc. Reading her yesterday's Discharge Summary made me realize of how many diseases she's been suffering. I don't understand most of the medical terms used in the Discharge Summary & I also can't imagine the pain she has to go through

And tears have been easily oozing lately. Sometimes, whilst I was driving, or taking bath or at my office room. Sometimes, I can't help but to miss Ma's old self, when she was still healthy & strong. She likes attending kuliyyah agama with Abah or her friends where she would drive them with her car & later makan-makan some where. She loved cooking even when she started to fall sick, she would cook while sitting down on the chair 

Often, there are some disturbing thoughts lurking around in my mind & being an overthinking person I'm, they would emotionally affect me for days. Sometimes, I couldn't help to feel that I'm alone in this journey. Feeling hopeless & wish that I could have done better

Looking after a sick parent is mentally & physically tired & challenging. And I pray to Allah swt to always ease my affairs & give me more rizq so that I could provide the best for both of my Parents. Aminn

Dep.ressing

 

Hari Kecemerlangan SBP Zon Timur 2003, SEMSAS Kuantan 

 

Hallo! *echoes*

Updating a blog is actually addictive, although nobody reads mine anymore. Lols!

But at least, I have a place to freely pour out my thoughts & feelings. Being an adult is actually tough. You have to put a brave face facing the world when truth is, you're having 957205970529 problems inside

I've a friend who once told me that I'm lucky that I don't have any problem, nothing worrying me, my life is blessed with a good husband etc. What she doesn't know is, I choose not to share my problems on the social media especially on FB because accept it, there is where the bawangrangers gather. Lols!

I might be loud & used to be very open about my life in this space, sharing like every single detail of what I went through in a day, my student life, my past relationships etc, but as years passed by & I *coughs* gain more wisdom & maturity, I've become more reserved

Oh wait! Why do I sound so sad lately? My blog posts are obviously depressing :P

Linked.In

 

I'm probably one of those people who signed up to LinkedIn by curiosity, not because I'm searching for some better job opportunities or something. I was like, 'Man, what is this LinkedIn? It looks like FB during one of its early days but it also looks like a place where a bunch of smarty pants gather online & flex their achievements & all but I'm signing up anyway!'

The day I signed up was also the day I added another point to my low self esteem record. Oh, the pressure T_T

I mean, some of the positions those people are in; I never heard of them. And were they really born to just study all their entire life? So many academic qualifications! And here I am, only have 2 law degrees & haven't had any plan to do my LL.M, let alone crack my head to do PhD. Gone those days when I was an innocent 12 years old & had 4 ambitions written in my biodata; doctor (too bad I didn't like Biology & Chemistry and yup, I didn't get all As in my SPM), lecturer (atas sikit daripada cikgu but alhamdulillah, tak jadi cikgu if not I don't know la what would happen to my students with my iman senipis bawang ni. Probably would get the Cikgu Paling Garang Award every Teacher's Day), scientist (again, jokes on me) & lawyer (well, at least I made it!) 

Nasib baik tak pernah teringin nak jadi bomba ke, polis ke? Maklumlah, tinggi pun tak cukup

And now, although not religiously, LinkedIn is just another platform for me to stalk some people I know. Not me being busy body but just to ... well, getting to know them professionally :P

Demi Kelangsungan Hidup

Today is one of those lemau days

You know, lemau? Like feeling utterly blerghh! *insert an appropriate emoticon here* Sometimes I feel like I don't really belong here but demi kelangsungan hidup, ku gagahi jua

And selamat mendaftar kepada adik-adik yang berjaya ke matriculation, diploma etc. 2 of my super juniors from SciPP will read Law Foundation in UiTM Dengkil & I wish them the best of luck. Looking forward to welcome them to the legal fraternity in a few years time. InsyaAllah

18 years since I left my secondary school. Tua ke tua do'oh? 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin

 

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!

 

Today is Raya day 7, so hopefully my Raya wish is still valid. Eh, of course still valid. We Malay never tolerate when it comes to Raya, albeit how terkezut this year's Raya was. Lols! Talking about the whole country's kalutness after learning that 1 Syawal fell on Monday, 02/05/2022 instead of Tuesday, 03/05/2022. But if we had survived PKP/RMO for months, apa la sangat dengan Raya came a day early kan? ;)

This year, we celebrated Hari Raya at a few places; KL/Selangor (in-law's), Melaka (FIL's hometown), Perlis (MIL's hometown) & finally, back to Kelate, my hometown! Fuhh! All the Raya trip really worn us out. Demam one by one later. Pahtu tak dok doh la kurus maso Ramadhan. All the yummy rendang, kuih muih, biskuts & all; bucik teruh!

Anyway, taking this opportunity to humbly seek for everyone's forgiveness. Maaf zahir & batin for everything; oral or written, intentionally or otherwise etc

The amount of bags I packed for 4 of us. Definitely can never travel light

Cita-cita Saya

This August will mark the 9th year of me being part of the legal fraternity.

The feeling?

I don't know, honestly.

There were days when I felt I was on top of the world; feeling proud to be an advocate & solicitor, helping people in need with my lawyer-ing skill etc but there were also some days when I felt like a total crap. Like a lost clueless kid on what she should be to perfectly blend & survive in the society. You know, like a kid who just completed 19302657 questions on the survey sheet provided by the School PRS which would tell you what career suits you best as an adult yet in the same time the suggested careers seem so unfamiliar, strange & unrealistic

And today is one of those days when I feel like leaving the office, go to a quiet place & cry. Ok, maybe going to Starbucks alone seems okay juga kan minum-minum, makan my favourite Rasberry Scone but you get the idea or not?

Sigh!

Sebenarnya, apakah cita-cita yang paling sesuai untuk saya ini ya? 

Long time ago before the idea of being a lawyer came into 16 years old me (ok, that was 19 years ago. Tua sudah), being an archaeologist had always been my ultimate interest & ambition but my Mother didn't seem fascinated with it. I remember crying upon her disapproval of my ambition; feeling heartbroken & shattered

Until now, I still love history, especially Egyptian archaeology. My current Youtube videos obsession is old chateaus in Europe. Boring to many but so interesting to me 💓

                                                         Can I be a part of the society please?

Isn't too late to chase my dream? I mean, is archaeology still not a promising career in our country? But who cares about being demanded in the career ranking market or not, just follow your freaking dream Suria! Ikut sis la nok jadi gapo. I'm already 35. I'm valid gitteww

Ok, gtg. Back to the reality. I'm still a lawyer for the next 30370378 years I don't know. Have to earn some money & make a living. Not tai tai level but alhamdulillah for the rizq

But still, nanti ada rezeki I want to read history & be the coolest archaeologist in the country. Lols tak habis-habis. Entah-entah masa tu gigi & kaki pun dah goyang

Yakinnya Kamu

 Assalamualaikum & hallo!

Nobody asked but I recently celebrated my 35th birthday last January. Alhamdulillah but woww! 35 is really a BIG number & to think that I'll be 40 years old (insyaAllah) in 5 years cringes me. Tua dah sis dik tapi amalan & amal ibadah tak seberapa. Hidup dok tang tu je la, young at heart kununnya. MasyaAllah. Huhukz!

So, mathematically I was:-

• 30 years old, 5 years ago (2017) - I gave birth to my 1st child on June 2017
  
• 25 years old, 10 years ago (2012) - Completed my LL.B (Hons) at UiTM Shah Alam. I was about a year late compared to my peers due to 1 year wasted  in the matriculation college & then started over with Pre Degree Law. But that's another story. The opportunity to read law came late but I grabbed the chance & never turned back ;)
  
• 20 years old, 15 years ago (2007) - I don't know why but my memories of being 20 is quite vague. Apakah terjadi kepada mek semasa mek berusia 20 tahun?
  
• 15 years old, 20 years ago (2002) - Sat for my PMR & scored straight As. I went to a girls' boarding school for 5 years; a love-hate relationship with it but so many memories made there. Had my 1st love when I was 16 which I finally called it a quit 10 years later *cue some sappy love songs*, was a school debater representing the school to HKSPB & PPM, made some real awesome friends, a friend who then became a backstabber, hostel life, SPM etc. The good old days. At times, I wish I could turn back time & fix some things right :')
  
• 5 years old, 30 years ago (1992) - Started attending an Islamic kindergarten where I learnt many basic Islamic practice & knowledge. Al-fatihah to my ustazah. Banyak pahala ustazah ajar saya
  

Actually, lately ni banyak betui terkenangkan memori lama. Age factor? Or probably because it's SPM now. Let me tell you something that from time to time, I think at least once in a week kot I would have dreams about SPM or tests or HKSBP/PPM or any school related dreams. It's so exhausting to be honest sebab bukan yang indah-indah ya? Most of them ialah mimpi di mana sis berada di dalam exam hall, trying to finish answering questions at the very last minute or sis tak habis study or apa-apa je lah. Huhu! 18 years since I left the school but the nightmares kept haunting me. So, kena repeat balik ambil SPM ke macam mana ni? Mungkin juga sebab I don't redha or happy with my SPM result, thinking that I could have done better etc. Sedih la dik :'(

Tiba-tiba ada suara kedengaran di hujung tanjung sana, "Teruk sangat ke result SPM, kak?"

Honestly, it's not that bad (still had the chance to go to MARA scholarship interview) but kalau level SBP, biasa-biasa je la dik. Bersepah-sepah result macam sis ni. Lainlah Husband sis, tertinggal jawab 1 page paper Fizik masa SPM pun, still dapat A2. Woww! Yakinnya kamu!

Turning 5 years old soon & currenly is so into BTS. Pening Mama, nak

HALLO 2022!

 Assalamualaikum & hallo!

2 years & 3 months after my last post which was on 09/10/2019; so, how are you people? Wow! 2022 already, where have I been?

Nope, I'm not here to announce on any latest edition to our family. Well, not for now. Or is there even any chance in the future? Hehe! But, how life has been totally different since Covid19. It's funny when people have used Covid19 as a thing to mark on some events. Like, 'Lamo doh tok jupo. Last jupo sebelum PKP".

As for me, MCO 1.0  was like a life changing experience; had to be home taking care of my Kids (Iman was 2y9m old & Imran was 10 months old) whilst A.H was working as usual because there was no such thing as WFH for the frontliners, looking after my sick Ma, being the house manager (my mad respect to all full time SAHM out there! How do you guys do that with kids cling their lives on you whilst making sure the house is spotless, masak-masak & all?) & then came Ramadhan + Raya. 

Thank Allah that we lived with my Parents which means some extra hands from Abah to look after the kids whenever I was busy being the house manager. Wow, busy sungguh nampaknya menjadi house manager padahal anak 2 orang je pun but percayalah, setiap orang diuji dengan ujian yang berbeza. In my case, my then 10 month old Imran was so clingy.

Oh, I also got to sharpen my cooking skill! Might not be as good as Che Non but none of family had the food poisoning & adalah yang puji-puji sikit eh berat pula bakul ini, so ok lah kot?

Suffice to say; selepas MCO 1.0 saya tidak lagi bercita-cita menjadi seorang suri rumah because that 3 months of MCO 1.0 had witnessed how struggle I was to adapt being a full time housewife T_T

I honestly don't have anything in mind to share here honestly, just some random stuff & I've been missing to write. Tak samalah tulis panjang-panjang di Instagram kan?

Anyway, here some recent photos taken on 01/03/2022, Tuesday at Aeon Mall, Big Bad Wolf & Jiwa Cafe. Ginilah dik bila ada anak-anak kecik. It feels wrong to keep them inside all the time but you also don't want them to get exposed to much. Tapi kesian pula dok rumah je kan? Mama also want to go to malls. Jadi, kita keluarlah jalan-jalan on weekdays

Imran 2y9m18d day & Iman 4y8m16d

Soon to be 5 years old dah anak Mama sorang ni.

I'm sorry for being strict on you sometimes, Sweet Cheeks :')

Kota Bharu also got BBW, you know?

Had to go separately with A.H. I was Iman & he was with Imran

Mama has always been fun to jalan-jalan with; semua bolehhh

"I found the best book for the Kids" katanya

Mama's manja boy

Papa's manja girl. Fair la kan, one manja kid for each parent. Hehe!

P/s: Curious, ada lagi ke orang baca blog sekarang?

Hmm... Hallo?

Assalamualaikum & hallo!

My previous post had 55 people viewed it which makes me wonder who they are. Like seriously, is there anyone out there who still religiously updates his/her blog? I just hope that Blogspot won't just disappear as I desperately need to keep this virtual diary. Otherwise, there would be no more my so called secret hidden place where I used to pour out my heart's contents. Seronok juga baca posts yang lama-lama. Izinkan sis syok sendiri. Lols!

So, what's up?

As I'm typing this; Alhamdulillah life has been good

My Husband is still the old funny nerdy guy who is currently in a long medical leave as he had an ACL Reconstruction Surgery last August due to his knee injury whilst playing in a football match.My kids; Iman Soraya is now 2y3m old & Daniel Imran is 4m old. I'm still a practicing advocate & solicitor in a legal firm in my hometown.  We just upgraded our family car from sedan to SUV. My Parents sihat; Abah is 72 years old & Ma is 65 years old. Hidup tidak kaya but tidak juga susah; alhamdulillah for the rizq

And oh, I'm still struggling to loss some weight post pregnancy. Currently weighing 50.3kg & I want to, at least loss another 0.8kg. I can't be more than 50kg because I'm petite, 153cm je sis ni y'all T_T

I also have been in a no sugary drink challenge for almost a month & realized that I shouldn't be too hard on myself as I'm still fully bf-ing Imran

Hmmm... What else?

05/06/2019, Eid Fitri

Iman Soraya #722d #103w #23m23d  

Daniel Imran #25d

21/09/2019

ImanSoraya #2y3m8d

 Daniel Imran #133d #19w #4m10d 

  12/09/2019

Announcing The Arrival Of Our Little Prince ♥

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 In the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent The Most Merciful

We are pleased and totally grateful to announce the arrival of our second child, a healthy son named Daniel Imran Binti Mohd Azzam Hafifi who was born on 11/05/2019, 6th Ramadhan 1440H (Saturday) at 9.25 a.m. Alhamdulillah 

Daniel (دانيال) means intelligent

Imran (عمران‎) means happiness & prosperity

My Husband, A.H & I decided to call him, Imran instead of Daniel. Or his full name Daniel Imran whenever he makes us mad which I pray he'll be a good boy & won't cause us much headache later. InsyaAllah. Hehe! He also shares the same birthday month with his Sister, Iman Soraya who was born on 18th Ramadhan 1438H

Yes yes, I know. Giving birth in Ramadhan means extra hard work in that qadha puasa department but honestly, I don't mind a bit. I regard it as a blessing in disguise as A.H gets home from work earlier rather than his usual 11 pm. So, the whole month of Ramadhan, we get to spend more time together. Alhamdulillah. When being married to a doctor, time spent together is so precious that I would take whatever I could. Huhu!

We're still adjusting our lives as family of 4 to be honest & although it was difficult on the first few days with our first child, Iman being extra manja, clingy & all and me being extra emotional, guilty & hapless at times; all praises due to Allah swt for granting us with this rizq

It still feels surreal. I mean, it just feels like yesterday I made the birth announcement on our first child, Iman Soraya which was almost 2 years ago

To our beloved son, Daniel Imran; we pray may you grow up well, healthy, bring benefit to everyone around you & be the coolness of everyone's eyes. Amin ya rabbal alamin. Papa, Mama & Kakak Iman love you so much ♥ & tak sabar nak beraya & berbaju raya sedondon bersama soon. InsyaAllah.

Hallo 2019!

Assalamualaikum & hallo!

Is there anyone still reading my blog? Hallo! Hallo!

Been mentioning for so many times previously but it makes me sad seeing this space left updated. It feels void. I've missed updating many major events in the past, including Iman's first Birthday which was 8 months ago! *gaps*

Must find some me time to blog although looking after an active 1y 7m toddler & being 6 months pregnant keep my hands full. Oh yes, A.H & I are expecting our second baby, alhamdulillah & Iman's going to be a big sister at the end of May, insyaAllah. The gender? It's going to be a boy, insyaAllah. A.H calls him 'Little Man', I call him by his first name (we haven't finalized his name but I usually have the veto power *blows nails*) while Iman .... well, just pretend that she's too shy & busy to show her affection. Lols!

See? I have a long list of things/news to share but to sit in front of laptop for at least an hour per day could be considered as privilege. I rather spend my me time watching Netflix to be honest. Currently watching The World's Most Extraordinary Homes. Bosan kan makcik punya taste? :P I think I've had enough of Korean/Japanese dramas, for now

It's almost time for the lunch break & please excuse this pregnant lady to have her beauty nap. To be continued & hopefully it won't happen in 6-7 months time

06.02.2019, Wednesday

Our little unit ♥

32 years old me / 24w5d pregnant me

603d / 86w / 19m23d Iman Soraya

33 years old A.H

11 Months Of Utmost Happiness ♥

11 months of us three ♥

 #334d #47w #11m #13may2018

Alhamdulillah, all praises be to Allah. Our Iman Soraya turned 11 months old on last Sunday, 13/05/2018. Another month to go & she'll be 1 year old, InsyaAllah

Since Iman's birthday will be in Ramadhan, a few days before Aidilfitri to be exact; I'm thinking of having an birthday iftar with the family. Read an article somewhere that celebrating the first birthday isn't all about the merriness of the celebration but more on how meaningful it is to your child. You might think that your child won't remember much about his/her first birthday but it's important to make him/her happy, surrounded by some familiar & lovely faces. After all, you definitely want some nice birthday photos not crying kid with tears oozing on his/her cheeks, don't you? Hehe!

But if I'm given the chance to host Iman's first birthday party, I would like to have her favourite things 'present' too. And you know what she likes most nowadays? Doraemon, Omar & Hana and Baby Shark. Boleh tahan meriah kalau semua VVIP tersebut hadir

Life Update

Assalamualaikum & hallo!

Oh dear!

My last blog update was 9 months ago! Where did all the times go? Iman was just 50 days old when I published my last post & today she's already 327 days old & in a couple of weeks, insyaAllah she'll turn 1 year old. Even typing this makes me sad. Sigh! Like seriously, it really feels like yesterday I had her for the first time in my arms. Sigh! Emo tidak semena-mena. Can she be my baby forever? Tak puas lagi nak gomoi-gomoi ni T_T

Life update in general; nothing much to shout out about. Still working in the same firm. Turned a year older in January (I need to update that 'About Me' thingy on the right side of this blog). A.H & I celebrated our third wedding anniversary in February. And oh! I'm currently enjoying motherhood which keeps me busy with 1001 things in mind. But hey no complain here. I'm honestly enjoying it. Alhamdulillah for this rizq given by The Almighty

I honestly miss blogging. Instagram is cool & fun, but writing a long caption macam essay (like you do in blogging) there isn't cool. Ada lagi ke orang baca blog? It saddens me to think that I've missed updating Iman's milestone here. From her first beach trip, her first roll over, her first teddy bear etc. This first time mother guilt; I hope it's not only me :(

Will try my best to come & update here often. InsyaAllah

06/04/2018.  Laman Sentosa Boutique Residence, Kuantan

#297d #42w #9m24d

My Favourite Things

Assalaualaikum & hallo!

One of the things that I love doing with Iman is singing (Oh, she's 50 days old today. Much love for that Sweet Cheeks! ♥) From zikr, nasheed to nursery rhymes; all those keep her entertained & make her coo and make me want to sing more despite my syok sendiri voice. Lols!

But but, I was in my school's choir team for 2 years & for 2 years in a row in 2000 & 2001, we were the first runner up in the State Level Choir Competition. So, my voice isn't that bad at all huh?

Anyway, these 2 songs from The Sound of Music have been my all time favourite (in fact, I love all the songs!). And since it's been more than a decade since I left my secondary school, I kinda mess up the lyrics. Malu la please nak show off depan Iman that her Mama can sing but lyrics ke laut :')

The Sound Of Music
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The hills are alive with the sound of music

With songs they have sung for a thousand years

The hills fill my heart with the sound of music

My heart wants to sing every song it hears
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My heart wants to beat like the wings of the birds

That rise from the lake to the trees

My heart wants to sigh like a chime that flies

From a church on a breeze

To laugh like a brook when it trips and falls over Stones on its way

To sing through the night like a lark who is learning to pray

I go to the hills when my heart is lonely

I know I will hear what I've heard before

My heart will be blessed with the sound of music

And I'll sing once more

My Favourite Things

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens 

Bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens

Brown paper packages tied up with strings

These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels

Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles

Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings

These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes

Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes

Silver white winters that melt into springs 

These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites, when the bee stings

When I'm feeling sad

I simply remember my favorite things

And then I don't feel so bad